Thursday, October 28, 2010

Flying with Cows

When I was very young around three years old my mom was the headmistress of a school in Bihar, Bodhgaya district to be exact.  I have a few distinct memories of those early days that I spent at Bihar. 
The first problem that I faced when I went to the new place was the language difference.  I being from a Bengali family knew next to nothing about Hindi.  As children, language seldom becomes a barrier in interaction, I remember playing games with the neighboring children and joining them in hide and seek.  I also distinctly remember my confusion over the word ‘dhup’ which means ‘sunlight’ in Hindi and ‘incense stick’ in Bengali.
One of the adventures that fill me with a feeling of joyful wonder was the day that I spent flying with the cows.
Before I start my tale I believe it would be prudent to describe to you my mom’s place of work.  You see, it was a primary school up to class five.  The school consisted of a few rented rooms in the ground floor of a two-storied-building.  One part of the school was the teachers’ quarters.   Just behind our quarters was a cow shed, which proudly proclaimed a good number of jersey cows.  Those days we had no need for any alarm clock, as the congregation that lived behind our quarters, would wake us up with their morning adulation to the rising sun; the ‘Moos’ and ‘Maas’ would be in perfect composition of notes like a well-oiled symphony orchestra. One another important fact that I almost forgot to mention was that there were two toilets, one for the use of the teachers (which was situated in the school premises) and the other for the use of students (which was situated in the middle of the field, a little out from the school).
On the day the adventure took place, I decided that in order to answer natures call, I must do it in commune with nature i.e. in the middle of the field.  Taking permission from my grade teacher I set forth like a warrior about to go into a mighty battle. 

After doing all the necessary purification that was required, I was just returning back when I chanced upon our dearly beloved neighbors being led to pasture for their lunch (or was it breakfast?).  I decided to tag along.  I sat on top of a black fellow, like an emperor about to visit his dearly beloved subjects, and set forth.  I spent the day with the other cow-boys playing with them, giving bath to the cows in the river.  I even had a wonderful lunch at a stranger’s house.
When evening came I returned back joyfully, I raced into the compound into my waiting mother’s arms and excitedly started to tell her all the adventures that I had that day.  My mom silently led me inside for evening wash and dinner.
That was the first time I ever tasted freedom.  Freedom where there is no expectation, where I could be and behave however I wanted; freedom to do as I pleased;  freedom where I broke away from the monotony of a student’s life; freedom like a bird experiencing its  first flight and realizing the vast sky.  It was a day that I flew with the cows.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Journey



     I read a wonderful book called ‘the Alchemist’ in 2005.  It is the story of a young man who travels around, far away from home, in search of treasure.  His whole life is a journey in search of the treasure that he sees in his dreams. Throughout his journey he learns many things and becomes a better person because of his experiences.

    I do not know who once said that ‘Life is a Journey’; but I do know and believe it to be very much true.  We begin this journey of ours right from the time that we are in our mothers womb.  We continue it through our formative years.  We journey through all the ‘Seven Stages of Man’- as William Shakespeare puts it- and at each stage we learn and become a better person because of our experiences. 

     Bishop Fulton J Sheen in his autobiography ‘Treasures in Clay’ says that when we begin our life God has in his mind to make us a beautiful vessel.  But because of our freedom of choice we choose not to be the vessel that God wanted us to be.  So God adds experiences in our life to help us become the next better thing. 

  I believe that if I wish to discover my purpose in life I must first study my past.  I should look into my past to understand what type of a person I was. I must consider deeply the seemingly coincidences that made an impact in my life. These coincidences are like the pieces of jig-saw puzzle.  Only by reflection on them and joining those together will I be able to discover a part of the bigger picture that God is drawing out for me.  I will be able to decipher the path on which God is leading me and my true purpose in life.

     I believe if I have to discover my purpose in life I must first think about my past therefore I will in my next blog write about my childhood events and reflect on them together with you.  

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Introduction

Introduction

     To all you who are reading this blog, you must be wondering what this blog is all about.  You see, a few days ago I saw the film "Julie & Julia"  and I was thinking that it would be great if I am able to write a blog too.  The main purpose of writing this blog for me is that I have been searching for a long time about the purpose of my life.
     I am a catholic and since childhood I have been told that the purpose of our life is to "Love and Serve God".  I have often wondered how I am to fulfill this.  Am I meant to live my life out like so many people around me, getting married, bringing up children or the other extreme; living a life of celibacy?  I don't know.
     I have asked many people throughout my life to help me.  They have always asked me to put forth long term goals and try to follow them through. I have tried several times and have always been a failure at following through with my goals. (My current gaol being: to reduce my weight)
    Through this blog I hope to be able to lay down my thoughts and examine them and my life so that I may be able to discover what my life is all about.  What is the purpose of my life.
    I hope that all of you out there who like me feel confused about what to do with their life will be able to sympathies with me and that we will be able to help each other discover the purpose of our life together.